*fast-paced vacuuming the wall*

 oh boy oh boy so long I have been ignorning S2S!

Assalamualaikum and hello to you :D  (of which I doubt if anyone had waited for a new post,LOL *vain*)



Life's been pretty good for me alhamdulillah...Current job has its ups and downs but more of the ups rather than downs :)


We are already in week 11 of second semester and I still can't believe I survived first semester!

This semester is a bit challenging as I am "teaching" 3 research classes and only 1 first year subject.  I've begin to understand the game but got taken aback by some rude behaviour of students  *only a tiny portion of them*.  I will not spill the drama here but they make me question their existence in UNIVERSITY. If you, as a student, don't want to commit yourselves to the tasks given, whine every now and then, not satisfied with the marks given....but everything contradicts with the amount of effort and hard work you put in, WHO ARE WE KIDDING HERE?! Why do you even care to come and study then?! So, save the whines for other stuffs that doesn't concern the teachers. I try to be lenient, sympathetic but you go over my head, problems will occur.   [kata tak nak drama kat sini...ish ish ish ]









On a brighter note, my birthday this year  [7th April, ting ting] was filled with fun and laughter despite the fact my family was not with me and I had to work. Thank you new jolly friends...rhifat bhi wovvs youz :D 

With the increment of age and the younger I became  [lahhh sangat :p], I pray for many more good things to come, good health, good friends, peace and humanity for my brothers and sisters all around the globe, ameen.

Prioritize your priorities

Aim: all the way towards phD, inshaAllah...ameen thumma ameen! :)




Till then.....I will try to write more if I have things to talk about :D

What have I done today to make me feeel prouddeh!

*wiping dust away*

Bismillah,


It has been long since I last wrote something here. Duty calls I guess, no? Well, I may have been MIA here but I did not stop writing. Writing in English is a good activity for you to brush up your English writing skills. Okay, okay, coming back to the point, it has been one month plus of working and I have experienced loads of things. Since I am a teacher so let's follow my sequence of themes so that I won't be running around bushes and confuse myself after this.

Le subjects

I am teaching two English subjects this semester. One subject is for first year students and that would be the requirement for the next English subject which I also teach for this semester. 1112 is basically teaching the basic skills of English like impromptu speech, note-taking, summary writing, argumentative essay and group discussion (just like MUET speaking test). 2112 is a more complex subject where the students are required to carry out and mini-research and write a research report/mini-thesis on their research topic. Personally, I enjoy them both but I would prefer 2112 better because it is more challenging and caters to what I used to study in university while for 1112, because it is a basic subject, I have to tone down my expectations and seriousness of teaching and cope with students' different level of proficiency. But, it's a challenge for me to come up with slideshows and activities that will make them participate and practice the theories rather than just listen to whatever I nag present about.

Here, they don't have mid semester exam so 70% of the total marks come from assessments so yeah, they have to do well if they don't want to repeat the subject. We have already covered the first assessment which was 'impromptu speech". It was very interesting to watch and listen to the students presenting their speech with all sorts of behaviour while being in front. Kinda made me realize how I was back then. Hence, I was lenient on giving marks for this assessment. They [students] have no idea what they will be expecting once they start their writing assessments. Editor-mode activated by then :p

For 2112, I am only teaching one class for this subject [3 classes for 1112] and I must say, I love the subject and the class. Up until now, they are doing well and they ask questions whenever they are unclear about certain issues regarding what to write, what to find for literature review, how to construct a questionnaire and all. Let's see how their first draft is in order to know whether they understood everything or not..hoho

Le students

Teaching 4 classes with all kinds of students was a bit tough for me. First, I am an anti-social [meaning I'm awkward with new people]. Secondly, I'm awkward with the opposite gender and here I am, teaching classes filled with boys. Each class have different traits collectively. I have one class where the students are so lively and I also have a class which is sooo quiet whenever I come in and teach. I also have classes where I have both kind of students which is perfectly normal :D...Heck, me myself was a quiet student back then but I managed to brace myself to be a wee bit confident in some classes. I guess, in whatever generations we may be in, there would always be that different variation of students' behaviour. Variation also includes teaching students from different backgrounds and nationality. I've been in a...what they call as "Islamic environment" . From school until I graduated IIUM and currently I have to teach the Chinese, foreigners [well, we have lots of foreigners in IIU tho..hihi] and it is just something....unique and interesting. I have to weight things that I want to say to avoid misunderstanding or prejudice towards other faiths so yeah...For shy students, I try to stimulate discussions rather than me just doing the talking. If no one responds, I call out their names or go straight to them. Seram kan? hohohoho

Le ME

Did I change? Well I can't say on my behalf but from the stories I share with my besties, they are surprised that I can be like that in class. Like what? Let's just say I wear tipu-tipu confident act every time I go to class. They may think that "wow, is this the same Wanie we know all these time?". Same person, just with a different act in class. And to add in more, I'm a little bit.....garang? sarkastik? firm? I really don't know but I guess I am garang sometimes especially when the students do not respond to my questions, come in late [yes, me very punctual person] or they chatter when I am doing the talking. Memang mendapat lah budak2tu. I've noticed that I am not that awkward with people like I used to but that awkwardness will always be with me like BFF :D. I like to prepare my slides in advance and practice them beforehand so that I won't be blank on what to say in class but if I do, I will just attack the students with so many questions...hehe....quit a trick there ain't it? That's how you survive, lady! Everyday is a learning process and I am happy He chose me to experience this sweet  [and sometimes horrifying] moments.

Sometimes those disappointments still linger in my mind but this job takes it away nicely. Alhamdulillah for everything He gave and did not give me [yet]  :)

I will do my very best until the time ends and I hope me and my students can get along nicely, inshaAllah.

What I aim for is; to make them prepare for the hard cold true life after university ends...Hence, I like to share quotes and sayings with them....nasiblah ye students ku :D



[p/s: not checking my grammar....huwwaaa the irony!]





Till then,

toddles~

salam~~

Quote of the Day

"If a man is called to be a street sweeper, he should sweep streets as Michelangelo painted, or Beethoven composed music, or Shakespeare wrote poetry. He should sweep streets so well that all the hosts of heaven and earth will pause to say, here lives a great street sweeper who did his job well."

(Dr. Martin Luther King)

Top 5 regrets

I found this whilst tumblring.

Nurse reveals the top 5 regrets people make on their deathbed

 

For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives. People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality.

I learnt never to underestimate someone’s capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.
When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
This was the most common regret of all. When people realize that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.
It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.
This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children’s youth and their partner’s companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence. By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.
Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as result.We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying. It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical
details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end.That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called ‘comfort’ of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again. When you are on your deathbed, what  others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.

Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.

Source :http://www.ariseindiaforum.org/nurse-reveals-the-top-5-regrets-people-make-on-their-deathbed/

 

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Depressing yet so true.

 

Wallahu a'lam~

Yakin dengan RezekiNya

Jadi anak-anak, kasih sayang Allah tu banyak lagi luas. Minta, Dia bagi. Tak minta pun juga Dia bagi. Jadi kalau tak dibagiNya tu, sudah pasti banyak yang tak eloknya pada kamu. Jadi, sabar okey?  [Nisa Mohamed,2011]

 

 

Dan juga video INI  : Jazakallah Bro N.A.K 

 

 

Silap....azam baru sepatutnya ada....tolonglah buang jauh2 sifat pessimistic dan negativity...amaran keras buat diri!

Oh Allah, keep me steadfast on Your path. Make ease for me to achieve my dreams I beg of You,ameen

 

Indeed, with hardship [will be] ease

Sometimes I feel like letting it all out for the world to know,

But, tell me a person who lives a total carefree life with no problems?

So, I keep it all inside....

إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ‌ يُسْرً‌ا

Indeed, with hardship [will be] ease. [94:6]

Narrated Abu Sa'id Al-Khudri and Abu Huraira:

The Prophet said, "No fatigue, nor disease, nor sorrow, nor sadness, nor hurt, nor distress befalls a Muslim, even if it were the prick he receives from a thorn, but that Allah expiates some of his sins for that." [Sahih Bukhari, Volume 7, Book 70, Number 545]



Narrated 'Aisha:

(the wife of the Prophet) Allah's Apostle said, "No calamity befalls a Muslim but that Allah expiates some of his sins because of it, even though it were the prick he receives from a thorn." [Sahih Bukhari, Volume 7, Book 70, Number 544]




InshaAllah,ameen!